"I would give anything to make you better"

This post is intended for one person only. But if you read what I've written below and  makes you think, and if it applies to you then I am glad.







This is not how I wanted to do this, but I can't say it to your face. I can't say it on the phone, or through a txt.

I'm saying it here, because I know you'll see it, and I have no other way.

 







There's a proverb that says "You can only do so much, and then comes God".



I believe this to be true.



It's what I tell myself, at night after praying for you.

It's what I say to myself when I feel helpless in this situation. When I feel as if there is nothing more that I can do to help you, this is the thought that I turn to.



But now, it simply isn't enough. The proverb is still true. But it doesn't apply to you in this situation. There is only so much that I can do to help. And although, I strongly believe that God is a constant guide, the rest is down to you my friend.



It doesn't matter what I want or what your family wants. Our combined love and support doesn't change a thing. Our Love, it is powerful and infinite, but it doesn't change a thing, unless you are willing to make the change happen. That is the truth - our Love, my Love just isn't enough. And it hurts. I feel as if I have failed you at a time when you need me the most.



Although I'd like to, I understand that I can't make the choice for you, and I am not trying to guilt you in to making the "right" decision. I just want you to know that when you are ready, I will be here to hold your hand. Until you make that choice for yourself and for you alone, I don't know what else to do.



There is only a few things left to say now...



I can't imagine this life without you in it. The true you that I know, the happy & healthy you. You're one of my soul-sisters. Without even going in to all the selfish reasons for why I want you here for me, what I want most of all is for you to live a long, and full, happy life. Because you so deserve it, and you are so, so worth it.



Oh, and one more  thing...



...I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)



I Love you. X